The meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
So when I was born, my right eye was totally closed. The first couple of years , I wasn’t able to open it, and I couldn’t do any surgery for it either because it was attached with the nerve of my face, the one that controlled the movement of my mouth and it was very risky. Every year it opened slightly, but when I was a kid, some kids called me many names like crossed eyes or freaky. I mean you know  how kids are usually very creative so they don’t have any trouble to come up with  creative neck names. Thinking now about it, some children could be really evil. Yes totally pure but pure of evilness.But also from this I never ever made fun at anyone because of their appearance, actually I never made fun at anyone for anything.

 Now it is good that my right eye is almost equal with my left eye and it just show the difference when I am tired.

Something I lost: recently I lost my school ID

Something I found: Yesterday I found one dollar on the floor but I left it.

A sneeze: One week ago, while I was in Star box waiting in the line to get a cup of coffee, a women in front of me was carrying her kid so his face was towards me and then... I think you got the story child, sneeze, and my face.

What would you be doing if you weren’t doing this?

If you mean by (doing this) what I am doing in my life? If I didn't not study Advertising, I would be still continue  master and I would probably study motion pictures ad TV. I didn’t learn anything from my English teacher when I was in my country;  I learn it from watching American movies.So basically daily I used to watch a lot of international movies. Also another option for what I would l study would be chemistry, I love chemistry and math. In school all my classes’ grades were on the edge except of Chemistry and math, I always  was on the top at them, especially doing equations. I always puzzled the teachers about that.

Oz was Joking that this is his office in the bathroom, referring that he is a workaholic.

Here he mentioned that it doesn't matter what is your weight as much as your waist. The fat around your waist indicates if you have any health issues like the fat around your heart. It's like a mirror of how healthy you are inside your body.

Here, Oz and his crew went to treat people who have no health insurance. Some of them were in a very bad health as a result of delaying from going to the doctor.

Here he was talking about obesity problems.They went to couple of public schools. Some of the schools serve  fast food meals because it is more convenient and cheaper than the health meals. They interact with the students and discussed with them about the best choices for their diet. Most of the students had good reaction about the idea of having a health meal everyday.

The sympathy between the doctor and the patient.

I forget to post these pictures. When my brother was here I went with him to one of  Dr. Oz  lectures. He discussed some issues like health care problems in the United State. A lot of people  don’t have health insurance and some of the parents don’t have but their children have. Also he discussed about obesity problems. Actually he didn't enter a lot about any complicated medical subjects, so pretty much I gripped everything he said. Even some of his advises could be applied into advertising field; just swap the term patient to a client. I was the only one who didn't wear a suit.

A late post

How do you feel about your pet? Describe your relationship with it

I have more than one. I love my animals. When I was in my country, I used to spend time with them more than spending with humans.

I have one cat (Flex) from Flexible, I named him like that because he is like the animated character in the TV cartoon and usually when he plays he runs without noticing the things in front of him or the door so he hits his head with the door then takes a moment to realize what happens then shakes his head as nothing happens and then continue playing. He is really flexible.

I have a dog ( Diskey), he is a husky . I got him when he was just two months old. He is deaf. At first every one criticized me about that assuming he will be hard to deal with but I didn’t care.  he was very aggressive at first. The veteran thought first that Diskey was retarded because he didn’t have any responds when we interacted with him and even didn’t have any sense of recognition what dangerous was, he could jump from any high point without any hesitation, from a high table. Then while he was growing up he proved that he is very smart. When I call him he always comes, I don’t know how he does it. His house is in the middle of our garden, so when I reach home and enter the outdoor gate he always runs to the door even before he sees me. He developed very strong sense of smell. His personality is very funky, crazy, and wild like a cat personality.

I also have a parrot ( Koko), he can mimic exactly my voice. Also I have a hamster (Sewi). 

I tried to make all of them to get along with each other despite the misunderstanding between their grand ancestors, but apparently they still carry the grudge in their blood. Actually when they were young, they all got along until one day I entered my room, and I saw Sewi’s hair was spiky( from the shock) as if he was about to have a heart attack, then I realized that Flex who had at that minute very evil look was trying to assassinate Sewi.

I think it is "getting married" season

 St. Bernard dog was going into a mission. Ironically, there was a guy sitting on the street holding a piece of cartoon written on it (I need a beer), then St. Bernard dog came.

She was giving her bother her ice cream to taste it which reminded me of my brother and I. My brother Ghaith who is older than me 3 years. when I was at her age I used to offer  him to taste my ice cream and to share with him my other sweet things , then after my things were almost finished, I used to go crying and complaining that he ate my things. After that he decided to refuse any of  my generous offers. I wonder why?

 Yes I know,  back then I was very good sister.

Serious game

No, barbie doll's hair wasn't like this when she was in the store. As a result of an argument that happened between her and the girl, she was thrown on the street couple of times.

I really prefer to put the two cute babies' head back again, it would be much more appealing than this. Creepy.

Wedding vows with drinking coffee.

I think I made some enemies in China Town in the fruit store. How did I dare to pick the good cherries and leave the bad ones, I should take a bunch blindly. They yelled at me in Chinese. I am an annoying customer. I always ask from them to tell me the price for each item because they are as fast as a flying rocket when they weight the fruits and calculate the price. I made them very angry. Today some of them weren't  friendly at all. I think they should practice more their famous sport  (Yoga), it may help them to be more relax. Anyway I didn't let that effect my mood. Life is a bowl of cherries.

 

  So I use this website to continue writing http://www.ets.org/Media/Tests/TOEFL/pdf/989563wt.pdf

Some people trust their first impressions about a person’s character

Because they believe these judgments are generally correct. Other people

Do not judge a person’s character quickly because they believe first

Impressions are often wrong. Compare these two attitudes. Which

Attitude do you agree with? Support your choice with specific examples.

It really depends,  when you see someone from the first time, you can take some hence of his or her personality. Sometime really you can sense from the eyes if they are comfortable or not. Off course it is not a slandered to judge anyone.

I had a lot of experiences that I extracted from them and made me realize that I shouldn’t ever judge anyone from the first impression. For example one girl in my country, she was in my class, she was very quiet. Everyone when they mentioned her, they said she had a great work but she didn’t t like to interact with us thinking that she was arrogant. I always used to say hi to her, and I just liked to ask her if her classes were good. But I didn’t like to push myself on her, assuming that she wanted to be left alone. But I figure out, the case wasn’t like that. It is just she didn’t know how to approach others, and that proved by time and step by step, I knew her better and she is totally different from what I thought about her at the beginning. 

And even it happens to me, sometimes when I am nervous or when I meet people, I will have the rock face (without smiling and no emotions at all). Even worse, I just glare and that gives the impression that I don’t like that person ,but no, sometime shyness hits me in strong potions and it differs from situation to other. Sometimes I am me and act naturally, and the other times I am very very shy and who doesn't know me well, maybe unfortunately will get the wrong message. Anyway I think you got the point. No judging from the first impressions.

So today I went to register for the intersession. I will take a class called Anthology, Culture. It will be about people’s behavior, and also merged with marketing strategies and culture in general so I think it will be very interesting. I don't consider it as a heavy study, its more entertainment for me.

Today  I went to the Spring Show, it is a show my school hold it every year. It was exciting to see student’s work from my major and others, and there are some really great works. Next year my work will be out there. I Promise.  I know it is not very interesting post, but now between each word my eyes are closing the curtains so goodnight.

I slept 10 hours, it is an accomplishment for me. Usually I have a very light sleep. Today I was a little lazy, maybe because I have a fever from having cold, but not that big deal, it will go fast, I think, I hope. My friend Nam and I were planned to go to Lands Ends at 2pm, but after we met and while we were walking to the bus station, we felt hungry, so we just stopped and ate, then we saw yogurt store, we stopped again. After all this, it was 5 already. There wasn’t enough time to go to Lands ends so we decided to change our plan and went to fisherman wharf, and we just chill out and talked. Then we ate again dinner and dessert. We couldn’t resist, we are weak. So basically all the day we were just eating.Good day.

I didn't like this ad, after I Google her name Kara dioguardi, I know now she is a judgment in American Idol, and I think people like her. But for me the first time I saw the ad, yes I thought she is an angel but angel of death and wanted to take Tikki soul( the dog's name), and that she always when she takes her victims souls, she takes a photo with them and say cheese(even though here she is grumpy), no not a peaceful angel at all, and I don't like the levels of brightness and darkness.

If you really want to receive offers for free drinks from your friends or whoever you want, just tell them you don’t drink.

On Friday after we finished our last class, I and all my classmates with the teacher went to some place near of the school to celebrate the end of the semester. The place serves beer, drinks, and lunch.

So everyone ordered drinks, I just ordered juice. Yes I don’t drink. They all with their noble intention wanted me to try it, thinking it's something unimaginable to live without drinking, so they all offered me free drinks as an encouragement. One of my classmates, in a funny astonished look she said to me; YOU DON’T DRINK, what u do in your life?

 One of my friends describe drinking beer is the heaven of life. I think it’s’ something unusual here to not drink but believe it or not, it is not something common in my country to drink, they are just few bars.

So the only thing I feel it will be a disadvantage for me to not drink is that it will reduce the opportunities to get know people in work. I am in Advertising field. Do you know madman show? When you see all who work there always say let’s grab a beer and talk.

Anyway I will figure something. I am still a cool person. I can be crazy without drinking so it’s not a problem. I still go sometimes with my friends, they drink beer, and I drink cranberry juice. It’s great, believe me.

 

I don't like this day at all. My classmates invited me to come with them  to the beach for run baker. It was my first time I witness this. I spend with them around two hours and then left them . On my way back, people around me were nuts. This day is about getting drunk and getting nuts and stupid, very loud.

 I don't get them, do they enjoy when they reach the point they don't control themselves or being silly. Anyway, good that I experienced  run-baker but once in my life time is enough. So I felt it's more safe to get back home early.

If there is an animal or a bird who is different from the other members in their group, do the rest of the group treat them differently or animals  have more tolerant? In this picture, they seem they are neglecting the one in the middle but no, there are just looking for food.

Something else about animals
 I read once that cats know if they are attractive or if they are pretty, I am not sure about if the fact is true but it is interesting.

There was an experience the researchers did, I forgot the details but shortly it was a study about a comparison between the reactions that guys and women had, when they saw the same sex and the opposite sex of theirs, and how strong the reactions were. First they put a group of people inside a glass room and there was another group outside watching them. So they brought group of men to look at the group who were inside( men and women). The second experience they put women and they did (the same process). The interesting thing is men observers have shown a very strong reaction for the sex that  they are attracted to, and they gave, just an average reaction  toward the other sex, nothing more. Now about women observers, funny, most of them, they gave the same strong level of reaction for both sex, and the reason behind that is women in general have a very high sense of competition and want to compare whose prettier when they see other women. And why I brought this subject? A woman on the street remind me about it.

 When my brother was here in San Fransisco, he ordered toys for my nephews, and they arrived late and just got before two day. I am trying to be a grown up and resist to open them and play with them. It's hard.

It puzzled me when I found each one of my pair of shoes was separated totally from each other in a very different places and I even didn't have a clue how they got there. Well, that proves that Toy Story theory is true. TOYS AND OBJECTS get alive when you go to sleep.

A confession to make:
This post was blank, after I got back from school and wanted to upload the pictures,  on the process I slept.

So this what I gripped from today, again, unfortunately these days I am stuck in routine so not a lot of things are going on.

It is an interesting thing, how simple things could show a slight part of people personalities. For example, when people want to cross the street and they find that the sign is going to turn into red( when the number on the sign is counting down). So they have to make a decision. Some people stop, thinking they will not make it, even though sometimes, they still have the time to cross it even without rushing. Some people run. Some will be hesitate and look around them until they see someone cross, then they will be encouraged and follow others . Some show the attitude of not following anyone and they don't care what others do and look with sharp eyes. In addition they stop and respect the rules. Some dare to cross even if the sign turned into red, leaving angry drivers cursing. Off course this doesn't mean it is a stable reactions of theirs. The mood factory and the circumstances swing sometimes the reactions 180 degree.

A late post.

He didn't want to hold his father's hand. After a long negotiation, there was a settlement between the two parties. The teddy bear was the solution.

funny

The interesting thing is that Jamba juice is always closed on Sundays, but with putting the new sign today on the door, it made me feel that they don't want anyone to be mistaken that its is open or try to open it, as the door is unlocked or has something wrong with it, but like this it griped more attention .

Saturday, May 12, 2012 



Thoughts of the day

1-when a guy who works in a restaurant takes a break to eat his lunch that brought from another place, put the fork slowly on the table and try to run.

2-A lot of stories happen while I am waiting for the light to turn to green.For example:

One guy on the street was taking a photo, maybe he is a tourist or he is a professional photographer, I don’t know. Anyway, with his very fancy camera, and the way he hold it, you would think he is a professional photographer. He was taking a picture for a tall cool old building but at the same time, the building's design is similar to any building in San Francisco. Anyone who passed the guy, looked interestingly at what he was taking. There was a woman when she passed him, she immediately without blinking (I think she is a tourist) took her camera from her bag, and took a picture for the same building that he was taking, so she adapted his perception that was cooked with his own taste, with his own reasons and she followed him without testing herself if she really liked it. I am not trying to judge her, but I just think it was really interesting reaction.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ySJaH7OXzOA
This documentary won awards, and I am using some clips from it for my project, which is about raising the awareness of how experiencing other cultures, and meeting other people from different countries at a young age may raise the chances of bringing peace or at least decrease the conflict between each others cultures. And by bringing children who came from different background, religion, opinions, and even children who have war between each other and make them meet and do activities together, shows  how they developed more understanding and having the willing to hear each others' opinion, and they attend to grow up with being more open minded and support the case of peace.
 In general, If a child lives inside a bubble whole his or her life just surroundedof what his group believe and think, it will be much harder on him to understand what others groups' point of view, and refuse to put himself in their shoes. He will forget that everyone at the end is a human like himself and every one’s life is valuable.

Happy ending

I promise

It has been one month since I started rozroz blog. From writing nothing, to write every day is considered a progress . Good job Razan, keep going.

After one week, I will finish finals; I am planning to do  these things. Some of these are: learn how to ride a bicycle, no I don't know how, in my country the streets are not convenient for riding, I rode a bicycle until I was 7 or 8. Another thing is to keep writing. Discover new book store to sit and read. Until now I can’t find a place that is cozy, many of them are very small. Find a new place to move in. My place is okay but now I am more familiar with the city and I can find more convenient place and the most important thing is that I can find a pace safer.To go with my friends to a trip. We don’t know where yet but when it was Spring break, we agreed to delay it .we knew if we went in Spring break, we will not enjoy it that much especially there wasn't enough time after the break to do all the projects that left . I really want to go to a jungle or places involves with nature and animals. Another thing, I really want to adopt, it is the longest period I stay in my life without any animal, but unfortunately it is not fair to her or him especially I will be at school all the time, unless the school put a new policy that they can accept new type of students, and they agree to bring our animals with us, we should, we are studying in  art school, they should be more flexible and encourage us to break the roles of normality.

I don't know why blogger kept saying the post is failed to send, and that’s not the first time. Anyway, My Thoughts for the day:

Not a lot of thoughts. Today I had to go by bus, so there wasn't a lot of fun time to walk and have not got the chance to see what's happening around me.

1-When I usually go to Star box, I don’t see a lot of people reading the newspaper. I see most people are reading books but not newspaper. Maybe many of them read the news on the internet, I don't know, but for me I like the feeling of flipping the papers. But still when I grape a newspaper to read, it is like there is something weird, and some people look at me like I am a geek, especially the young generation.

2- I have a question, why San Francisco city didn't enter genius book yet for having a lot of accidents? I made that as a conclusion from the firefighter cars that pass every 10 minutes or even less. I really don’t want to disrespect firefighters and I respect them and their work, but I have this question that roam inside my head since forever, do they set the alarm also when they want to grab their lunch or coffee and do it faster? I hope not.
And guess what, the firefighter station is on my neighborhood. No need to set the alarm at morning. I am always alarmed, lucky me.

Thoughts for the day
There is something really weird. Usually I pick a product for my projects school, for example last semester was PETA about horse race rights. Almost every day, I used to see something about horses. When I read the newspaper the first page was about PETA, and the first page in the magazine when I opened, was a picture of a horse. Next, I sat in Star box, and then a woman near me told her friend about her farm that is full of horses. Seriously, how many women have farms of horses? Or when I saw the police man riding a horse on the rode. And all this among the period I was working on the project. Maybe coincidence I know. Another project, recently I picked about Raid the insects killer, also unfortunately, I witnessed a lot of insects accidents, the newest one was today, a big spider crawled on me, maybe because it is spring, and I know probably all these things are coincidences . Maybe horses and insects and other things always around me but my part of my brain got alerted suddenly and noticed them where ever I went, because at that time, I was focused thinking about them. But still interesting, maybe my next project I will involve with something about bank or money, let’s see what will happen. Do you think I will win a lottery, or find one hundred bucks on the street? I wonder.

 My notes for the day
 1- While I was walking, an old homeless man said to me, cheer up, it could be worse than that, which made me laugh. I believe my mouth get disconnected with the wire of the muscle that controls smiling, especially when I am switched on to the thinking process. Even my friend told me I look very zoom out while I am walking . I put it in the list, next time a big smile. Hum will see.
2- Many pets really look in a way or other like their owners, especially the dogs, which it does make a sense.
3- The man who works near of my school as a shoes polisher, always look at the person's shoe first then he raises his eyes slowly to see whose face is it and look again to the shoes as he is taking notes with his eyes. He always talks friendly with the costumers. I believe he is the perfect guy to write a book with its title (how to know a man’s personalty from his shoes).

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As I mention before I love walking, but today it was not such a good idea. Instead of the hope of taking a refresh air this morning from walking to the school, I reached it and I was feeling nauseous with having a pale yellow face, that's what my friend told me how I looked. No wonder why. What is the story behind every one is spitting on the floor?  I saw more than 4 people spiting in front me, even some of them shoot it almost where I put my foot.Uggh . Rude people. Seriously it’s a health consuming issue. By the way, I know it is a very disgusting subject, but I don't have any subject to talk about. Sorry.
 I think if they put a charge for anyone who spit,  they will collect enough money to solve the homeless issue (another thing that I was surprised when I came here to San Fransisco), and how can they caught people who spit, by a machine that scan their DNA from the street, that's after 50 years of a developing technology.

I aware that these days, my writing is a little dull, but until my school finish which is soon. On the other hand, all this consider as a worming up, so sooner or later, the creative writing will come.

Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

So simpleton means to be a fool right? Let’s assume it is. Off course on all the cases I prefer to be genius but sometimes it is good to not think about anything even just for a little bit and to relax.

At the same time the extreme of anything considers a curse. I am talking about to be a genius which is mean to worry a lot, to think 24 hours, to have a very light sleep, and the overwhelming from the things that roam inside his head all the time, it is pretty difficult, but also he may adapt with his life. Off course doesn’t mean every genius is like that, it depends.
Each one of us comes as a whole package right? I mean your characteristic, the level of your intelligence, your attitude toward life, the ability to handle challenges, your patient level. So it’s like you take something from some part of those and add it to the other side, leaving one of the parts with a missing piece, so every case has a pros and cos. But, I still believe that we can control our lives whoever we are.

In order of importance how would you rank: happiness, money, love, health, fame?

First I will choose love, parents’ love, family’s love, couples’ love, any kind of love is important. We are creatures who are full of emotions and need continuously to feel that we are loved from someone, no matter what’s our age or the gender. Then I will choose health, health is something very essential. If you have your health and you have a normal size brain of a human being, you don't have any reason to waffle about your dream. Just do it. Third will be happiness, though happiness will come anyway with love and with having a good health, off course combined with a good attitude toward life. Then money,  money is an essential thing, but it comes and goes.  I don't want fame, I am not interested at all. For me fame=headache.

What form of transpiration do you use daily and why?

I usually go to school and go back home walking. It usually takes me 40 minutes to reach school. I don’t like to use buses or cars, they make me very dizzy, but sometime I have to go by bus if I have to, especially if I am going to be for the class late.

Walking is something very important to me, I do it daily. I am a person who has to do a physical activity to keep me focused. A simple example, in class I have to move my hand and doodle, it really helps me to hear the lecture completely without being an absent minded . Normally a big part of my thinking process happens while I am walking. So it keeps me refresh, focused, calm, and keep me fit . With the life style I have right now as a student, sitting long hours in school takes part of my energy so I have to balance it with walking. From a young age I am used to do a physical exercise every day. It’s an alternative exercise for going to the gym.
 I don’t mind to walk more than 4 hours. That’s why I love San Francisco for the ability to walk freely.

This post is for 5-2-2012.

  I rewrite this post twice, I don't why my computer keep shutting down surprisingly, with a statement saying it's a crash dump. Anyway I didn't save what I wrote, and while waiting to open the computer and rewrite it again, took a nap but the the nap took more than I thought.



 

In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?

5 years is really long time but I will actually remember this especially it is the first time my brother came and visited me in San Francisco and at the same time I have finals and project.

 I usually always remember what food I eat and what song I am hearing before any big exam or a project so even if it was 5 years from now, because I still remember these things that happened before 5 years ago, high school events. 

,but except of that if there wasn’t some different events from the other normal days, I will just remember each era or each semester overall and what feelings impact on me.

 I was hesitated to post this and I edit it a lot, really a lot, not from the grammatical prospective but about what to say or not to say. Anyway no more long introduction. One of the goals that why I am excited to do this blog is not just from my writing purpose, but also to force myself to say what's in my mind and to express more without being hesitated, and without calculate it a lot . Tomorrow is my mother's birthday 5-2-2012, Happy Birthday. My mother had Cancer for 4 years and a half, and she passed away in 5-11-2002 at 7 pm when I was 15 and a half. My mother tried with her positivity to ease the trace of sadness and sorrow that Cancer left it every day on us . She didn't want to leave us with deep scarves from going with her through fighting Cancer, especially before 15 years, Cancer treatment wasn't developed like theses days. She always used to say in her most hardest time "when I get better  I will cook your favorite food", or when I get better I will do this or that, she never had the gave up expression on her face, even if she had she didn't show it in front of us.

 She always used to say she wanted to see us on the top. I know every mother sees her children as the perfect children but my mother really believed we could do something, we believed because she believed, she raised us from that point. She hated any of us to put any excuses, she said "now it will be just an excuse but later it will be a big part of your personalty".

 People  usually use the expression of the saying" I can't live without you". After she died we could live, yes barely at the beginning, but we could, and that because from the values that we extracted from living with her, seeing her how she never gave up, she was a fighter. we had to continue, she wanted us to continue.
Anyway I hope no one sees any beloved ones get sick or anything bad happens.
 Having a family is a blessing, we should not see it as something guaranteed.
 This the only day I will let my self waved to the pathetic mood. Tomorrow I will have my sense of humor back. Good night people.